this is just a beginning

pengumuman snmptn udah keluar, daaan gue gagal lagi
seperti biasa gue sedih dan kecewa banget
gue gagal 3 kali, nama gue ga nyangkut diptn manapun
but it's okay, gue percaya gue udah ngelakuin yang terbaik, sekarang bukan saatnya buat gue sedih2an, it's time to move on

gue emang gabisa masuk ptn, tapi bukan berarti hidup gue berenti sampe disini
biarpun gue kuliah dipts, itu ga membuat gue terlihat lebih buruk dibanding orang-orang yang diterima diptn kan
yang penting pas kuliah nanti gue harus jadi anak yang lebih rajin, selalu semangat dan gaboleh sering lupa solat
kegagalan gue dikarenakan kemauan dan usaha gue yang terlambat
dan sekarang gue ga akan ngulangin kesalahan itu, gue akan mulai rajin belajar dari sekarang biar ip gue bagus dan ngecewain orang tua gue :)
gue yakin semua yang terjadi sama gue sekarang adalah yang terbaik yang dikasih Allah buat gue
seperti kata halida : 'orang yang sabar pasti dapet kebahagiaan yang ga terduga'
mungkin gue berkali-kali gagal tapi gue yakin Allah udah nyiapin hadiah yang lebih bermakna didepan gue
yang kita mau ga selalu yang kita butuhkan kan? 
mungkin jalan gue emang lewat pts
mungkin jalan gue emang di trisakti
semoga gue akan berhasil disini, amin

college oh college

yap gue udah sangat amat gak sabar nunggu masuk kuliah
biarpun sampe detik ini gue masih gatau mau kuliah dimana karna pengumuman snmptn belum keluar
tapii gue udah siapin semuanya haha, dari mulai buku tulis (gue nyiapin 18 buku tulis, padahal sebenernya ga perlu sebanyak itu juga), alat tulis, baju dan sepatu selayaknya anak sekolah haha
oke gue tau emang agak sedikit norak keliatannya, but i'm very very excited..
gue sekarang udah kuliah bukan sekolah lagi walaupun intinya sama belajar juga, tapi gue bangga karna 12 tahun telah gue lalui, dan sekarang saatnya melewati masa-masa kuliah yang pastinya membutuhkan perjuangan yang lebih keras

selain persiapan yang udah gue sebutin diatas, satu hal yang menurut gue penting banget buat gue siapin adalah mental
selayaknya tantangan dunia lain, dunia perkuliahan juga harus dilewati dengan mental yang kuat, bukan mental tempe seperti gue sekarang ini
jadi gue pun dengan semangat mempersiapkan mental gue, agar lebih dewasa dan lebih mampu menahan batu sandungan yang banyak di kampus nanti
selain itu gue juga harus lebih rajin, karna pas sma gue males maka ini saatnya untuk merubah segalanya
gue akan membuktikan sama nyokap bokap kalo gue bisa lebih baik dari sekarang, amin
daan semoga aja gue bisa kuliah di ptn, kalo bisa ui, amin
wish me luck yaa :*

:)

How do you know when you’re in love with someone? Is it when he’s the first thing that comes into you mind when you wake up and the last thing that you think of before you go to sleep? Or is it when your heart melts every time he looks into your eyes? The truth is, the signs come in a thousand different ways.

When you’re having a really bad day and hearing his voice on the phone just makes it all go away.When all you want to do is listen to him talk passionately about his plans for the future. When you would sacrifice your shopping time just to cheer him up on the field. When a mention of his name makes you miss him so much. When all you want to do is staying up and taking care of him when he’s sick. When your face glows every time you meet him. When even the way he laughs and eats and sleeps fascinate you. When you realize you can finish each other’s sentences. When you can recognize his perfume from miles away. When you laugh when he laughs. When you love seeing the reflection of yourself in his eyes.When you can’t stop smiling every time people talk about the two of you. When you remember him in your prayer. When you feel that he’s the only one who can understand you. When everything that makes him happy will make you happy, no matter how hurtful it is inside. When you’re often torn between your own egocentricity and your feelings for him. When really you’re mad at him but all you want to do is cry on his shoulder. When you can’t help glancing at him every other second as you’re both in the car and he’s seriously watching the traffic. When you actually enjoy the moment when he’s teasing you eventhough you’re pissed. When you dream of yourself being married to him with kids. When you want to be the woman who makes him coffee and puts on his tie every morning. When you’re seriously reconsidering the relocation because it means leaving him as you move to another country. When you find his boyish whining attitude is endearing. When you find his snoring endearing. When you have your own nickname for him. When every time his name pops up in your inbox you smile. When you gladly wipes his sweat as he changes your flat tire. When you find his singing entertaining even though he can’t carry a tune. When you forget when was the last time his name doesn’t cross your mind. When you can remember perfectly the sound of his funny laugh, his fake laugh, and his amused laugh. When he’s the only face you want to be on your 500 bucks Anya Hindmarch be-a-bag. When you would stay awake just to watch him sleep. When you’re seriously thinking of getting a tattoo of his name on your left hand. When he makes you happy and makes you cry at the same time. When you want him to always be your ‘imam’ when you’re praying. When you’re glad that you can be helpless sometimes because it means you can rely on his strong arms to help you.When being with him makes you want to be a better person. When everything could go wrong in the world and it’s okay, because he’s there, with you.

taken from : A Cup of Tea by Gita Savitri Devi
make your own one and let me know, bold/larger the line that fits you.